It saddens me

Some things in life are easy to do even when the situation is not liked.
For instance,
Work...
most of Americans find it hard to get up some mornings and go to work,  but we do it because we have to.
I have recently come across more situations that I remove myself from not because I don't want to do it, but because I feel like I can not be a normal person.
This post is on baby showers!
They should be the most exciting time leading up to the birth of the baby.
They are all so well put together and pictures are just so darn cute! People are so creative and crafty and I'm so glad they share the pictures with us to copy.
I just can't bring myself yet to go to any. I did promise one friend that I will be there when she got pregnant(after a 2 year long wait) and guess what? She's pregnant now and I couldn't be more excited for her. But for everyone else who doesn't feel my loss and pain and I can not come.
And I'm sorry.