When doing infertility treatments a lot of it is scheduling appointments, or as I like to call it "Baby making phone call"
I got to call this morning to talk to the nurse about ordering all my IVF medication. We have been working with a pharmacy called Freedom Fertility Pharmacy. They specialize in all fertility medication and our insurance plan is covered under them. Even though we still a less than a month away, I want to make sure I have everything squared away long before I need to start. This is also the case with Joe providing his sample to be frozen as a back up.
Doing stuff like this gets me happy and excited, like I'm doing something at least to help have another baby. It keeps my mind very positive and hopeful.
Friday, May 9, 2014
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
Aloha...
from my couch in Southern Ca.
we never made it to Hawaii due to a family emergency in my extended family. We have reschedule it for Oct. when we can add more family member there, 1. a new sister in law 2. hopefully a baby in my belly 3. my aunt and uncle.
We are taking advantage of this and headed over to visit Hubby's mom and 2 brothers in Oklahoma the end of this month. More family time before we start our IVF 2 month cycle.
we never made it to Hawaii due to a family emergency in my extended family. We have reschedule it for Oct. when we can add more family member there, 1. a new sister in law 2. hopefully a baby in my belly 3. my aunt and uncle.
We are taking advantage of this and headed over to visit Hubby's mom and 2 brothers in Oklahoma the end of this month. More family time before we start our IVF 2 month cycle.
Friday, May 2, 2014
Emotional cycle
Looking back, I did great yesterday.
Waking up this morning was a different story. I need my space and I need to be alone.
Going through treatments I can not be around pregnant people, they are at (in my eyes) the best stage of their life and they need to enjoy that and be happy and right now and I can not do that. I only bring this up because Brinley is almost two, and most of Brinleys friends mommy have had their second child or pregnant. I realize this is no race or competition but puts me is a hard place to be around, not to mention the Mormon culture of popping out babies.
All in all I have Bryn, Joe and our families and I'll be checking out of much of society.
The depression of infertility
Waking up this morning was a different story. I need my space and I need to be alone.
Going through treatments I can not be around pregnant people, they are at (in my eyes) the best stage of their life and they need to enjoy that and be happy and right now and I can not do that. I only bring this up because Brinley is almost two, and most of Brinleys friends mommy have had their second child or pregnant. I realize this is no race or competition but puts me is a hard place to be around, not to mention the Mormon culture of popping out babies.
All in all I have Bryn, Joe and our families and I'll be checking out of much of society.
The depression of infertility
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Vacation needed
We are headed to Hawaii in 5 days and it is much needed.
I went in this morning at 8:30 am to get my blood work. If you didn't know, after I do the IUI I start progesterone shots and this holds in the uterus lining so I won't get my period if I'm not pregnant and we only can tell through the blood work. After the blood work I headed off to Disneyland with my mom and sis and Brinley to distract me until I got the phone call. We had left and getting baby stuff back in the car when I got the phone call. I acted like I knew it was going to be negative when the nurse told me that it did NOT work again. Although I was disappointed, I was also in shock so I just seemed numbed. I had to switch my thinking right away and get excited and pumped to move onto IVF. I know I feel like I said that a few months ago, but we decided then do wait and do the Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy surgery (which I'm still 100% happy I did that first because we found Endometriosis that I never knew I had). So now that IUI #6 hasn't worked I have to stop taking the progesterone shots, wait for my period cycle to show up, then order all my IVF meds and wait for my period cycle to start again. Then we will start harvesting a whole bunch of eggs to retrieve. Once we retrieve them all, more drugs...more drugs then the following cycle we will do a frozen transfer.
So until then...Aloha!
I went in this morning at 8:30 am to get my blood work. If you didn't know, after I do the IUI I start progesterone shots and this holds in the uterus lining so I won't get my period if I'm not pregnant and we only can tell through the blood work. After the blood work I headed off to Disneyland with my mom and sis and Brinley to distract me until I got the phone call. We had left and getting baby stuff back in the car when I got the phone call. I acted like I knew it was going to be negative when the nurse told me that it did NOT work again. Although I was disappointed, I was also in shock so I just seemed numbed. I had to switch my thinking right away and get excited and pumped to move onto IVF. I know I feel like I said that a few months ago, but we decided then do wait and do the Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy surgery (which I'm still 100% happy I did that first because we found Endometriosis that I never knew I had). So now that IUI #6 hasn't worked I have to stop taking the progesterone shots, wait for my period cycle to show up, then order all my IVF meds and wait for my period cycle to start again. Then we will start harvesting a whole bunch of eggs to retrieve. Once we retrieve them all, more drugs...more drugs then the following cycle we will do a frozen transfer.
So until then...Aloha!
The morning of the dreadful day
Last week I went in for blood work to check my progesterone levels. The dr had me start my progesterone shots the night of my IUI. So when I went in I wasn't worried.
The nurse called me back and my progesterone was well into the 60's which is great. Anything into the 20's can hold a pregnancy and stop any miscarriage.
Fast forward to this morning, it's been 5 days seems I've had a lot of activity. Cramping, migraines- bad ones, hot flashes, more cramping, night sweats, just some stuff I don't usually deal with. If I'm pregnant obviously these were the signs I was, but I'm not pregnant these were again the nasty side effects of fertility drugs.
There is a lot going on in my life with the choice of natural medicine and traditional modern. The more and more I look at it, I am 100, moo 110% all the MD, Dr, prescription meds, this including all my fertility medicine. I don't like to play the guessing game or self diagnosed, I just like good o fashion "I have a headache so I'm taking ibuprofen"
Since I'm on my own blog soap box I want to say I believe whole heartily what trial and disease that come our way aren't always brought on because of us. Yes smoking can lead to lung cancer but I DO NOT believe anything my mom fed me or exposed me to at a young age brought on my fertility issues. I believe in a loving Heavenly Father who wants us to return to him, we knew the different trials we would be facing going to earth and gaining a body but knew we wanted to do that. So I believe right now this is our trial to strength us and make us pull closer to Him. I do not believe that I could have prevented this or lead a perfect life. I do not believe changing my diet only can cure endometriosis but I do believe moderation in all things and changing my diet to healthier will better my life in the long run a and give me more energy.
Since quitting soda last month I have felt an increase in my life, and right now I love it and can handle not having soda. Will I go on the rest of my life without it? Probably not, but for right joe this is good for me.
With that said.... We are off to the dr.
The nurse called me back and my progesterone was well into the 60's which is great. Anything into the 20's can hold a pregnancy and stop any miscarriage.
Fast forward to this morning, it's been 5 days seems I've had a lot of activity. Cramping, migraines- bad ones, hot flashes, more cramping, night sweats, just some stuff I don't usually deal with. If I'm pregnant obviously these were the signs I was, but I'm not pregnant these were again the nasty side effects of fertility drugs.
There is a lot going on in my life with the choice of natural medicine and traditional modern. The more and more I look at it, I am 100, moo 110% all the MD, Dr, prescription meds, this including all my fertility medicine. I don't like to play the guessing game or self diagnosed, I just like good o fashion "I have a headache so I'm taking ibuprofen"
Since I'm on my own blog soap box I want to say I believe whole heartily what trial and disease that come our way aren't always brought on because of us. Yes smoking can lead to lung cancer but I DO NOT believe anything my mom fed me or exposed me to at a young age brought on my fertility issues. I believe in a loving Heavenly Father who wants us to return to him, we knew the different trials we would be facing going to earth and gaining a body but knew we wanted to do that. So I believe right now this is our trial to strength us and make us pull closer to Him. I do not believe that I could have prevented this or lead a perfect life. I do not believe changing my diet only can cure endometriosis but I do believe moderation in all things and changing my diet to healthier will better my life in the long run a and give me more energy.
Since quitting soda last month I have felt an increase in my life, and right now I love it and can handle not having soda. Will I go on the rest of my life without it? Probably not, but for right joe this is good for me.
With that said.... We are off to the dr.
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