Wednesday, September 7, 2011

it hurts

Gosh, why can't it be me? I feel so numb.
I don't know how of you still do this...year after year and test after test. (infertile friends)
My treatments have just begun and I can't handle another pregnancy announcement.
I literally tears me up and I have to leave and take a drive to calm down.
This is when I realized I have come to that point, I need professional help in my mental state.
So, I'm looking into great support groups on 
http://resolve.org/
and
LDS Family Services

breath in,
breath out
breath in
breath out
gotta get some rest for tomorrow, night.

2 comments:

Ashley said...

You need this.

http://www.adoptionchosencd.com/

I replayed the song "Patiently" over and over and over....

Step by step, I'm climbing up this mountain
Some days I fight just to hold my ground
Two steps forward one step back
I can't lose time and I can't lose track
Of the perfect plan
of who I am

All that's been promised
All Heaven Offers
Everything I could ever need
**If not today, then surely tomorrow**
If I can keep the faith
If only I can wait
Patiently.

E-mail me if you need some loves. I know it hurts.

You hang in there because every tear
Every pain

Will be worth it.

I promise.

The P Family said...

{{hugs}}