I'm so happy that Brittany wrote something up for my blog this week. We just had the opportunity to meet for the first time, and our babies fell in love! I found her blog and found comfort and peace that I wasn't alone, I would read hers for support and inspiration. It made me want my own outlet to vent on and share with others so they don't always have to guess what I'm going through during our treatment process. We found out we were going in for treatments the same month (She was doing her first IVF and I was doing our first IUI). We were emailing all the time and followed the growth of these two beautiful miracle babies inside us. We have become life long friends and I'm so happy to share with you her beautiful family.
My husband
and I have been married nine and a half years now. Almost eight of those years were spent trying
to conceive. I was diagnosed with PCOS and never really had a cycle. I am still
battling with this and probably always will. If I could look back now I would
tell myself to enjoy life a little more. Try to relax and have faith. And then
slowly those feelings of inadequacy I had then return. It felt impossible to
enjoy life with such a heavy burden in my heart. How could Heavenly Father not
trust me with one of his precious children? Was I not good enough? It felt
painful to know that my righteous desire to be a mother may not ever come true.
Infertility will ALWAYS be a part of our
lives. It was the hardest trial I have ever had to endure. And trust me, I’ve had
my fair share of crap thrown at me. Infertility feels unfair and lonely. It was
impossible to not feel jealous or compare yourselves to your friends who had
two, three, or even FIVE kids by now. I hated people who complained about being
pregnant, or a teenager who had an “oops” baby.
I am here to
tell you that there IS hope. I am not going to say that every person out there
will have their miracle baby. But I WILL say that you are not alone. I feel
blessed. After a lot of painful years, LOTS of drugs, shots, and LOTS of
prayer, we were blessed with our miracle baby. He is ONE years old now and time
is moving fast. He has rocked our world in the best way. Every day feels like a
miracle to us. We appreciate every moment with this boy. J
After all is
said and done I can honestly say that I am grateful for the trial of
infertility. It’s not easy. It has opened my eyes and made me aware of others.
Infertility doesn’t have to define you, but you can choose what you do with it.
I am amazed at the community of women I have met along this journey. All these
women are strong and inspirations to me.
If you are
not struggling with this issue, chances are you know someone who is. Be patient
and kind to these women. They are strong and fragile all at the same time. I
have a great article on my blog of what NOT to say. Try to be understanding
that infertility is as painful as loss. To those of you dealing with
infertility REACH OUT! There are so many people with you struggling right now
who need someone to talk to. I have met lifelong friends through my blog. Aubrey
is one of them. J I know that it feels
dark and lonely, but I promise there is hope! And it’s worth it to focus on
that. I have never been happier in my life and I am now excited for what the
future holds! J
Her infertility blog: Ovulation success
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