Our embryo donation journey begins

Almost a month after moving on from our donor we contact my Dr.'s nurse to get an idea of where we were on the wait list. I had to make decisions about health insurance and it was between two great insurance companies but two completely different maternity coverage or hospital delivery and where. I was hoping to know if it was more in the June range or late 2017.
Beyond my surprise....we were up next!
It was one of the happiest days of my life, my eyes flooded with tears or hope and joy and excitement.My husband and I just were in complete shock and so much excitement.
Later that day our nurse emailed over a 4 page list of 4 line descriptions of embryos that were up for adoption.  Out of the 4 pages only 4 families had done PGS testing on their embryo and would be able to know abnormal embryos from normal ones. (remember in this post we had the 2 embryos we got from IVF 2 that were tested and both came back abnormal, both boys, one was missing a chromosome and one had an extra one)
So my husband and I knew we wanted PGS tested embryo already. Then from the 4 family, 4 stuck out to us so strong.
At this point all we knew was...
DEP#____
 How many embryos there were? grade 4AA, 5BB
Year the were frozen
Female: egg donor? age of spouse? ethical background
Male: sperm donor? age? ethical background
(and if pictures were available) which we will always keep this private.so don't ask

We asked for the profiles from the 3 families we wanted to know more from. our nurse emailed us over pages and pages on each family of embryos. We waited a few nights before we sat up in bed going over them. My husband reading them and I was to take notes....pros and cons. Cliffnotes on embryos
We knew that night which family batch we were going to transfer from, but decided to take the whole weekend to think and pray about it together and separate. It was so overwhelming that night but it was good for us to get in. This part of the process can't be understand until you have gone through something like this. Know these aren't your biological kids but that they were meant for your family and you were always meant to be their mom and dad.
I think we waited until Tuesday to email the nurse back and she made sure that they were reserved by us. She told us we have 6 months to do a FET (frozen embryo transfer). I assured her we would be quick.

Our own infertility journey

We each have our own journey in the infertility world. I remember when I was going through IVF I would spend countless of hours on the internet researching for a story that was just like mine,but did something different that got them pregnant. Days after days, months after months, years after year and I never found another like me!
Why? because we are all on our own path to find our children that are meant to be in our family. I have a great friend who has adopted two beautiful children and we have spend a lot of time talking and one thing I know for sure that she has taught me was her kids were meant for her and her husband, they just had to get here through another way, through an act of kindness and love.
When I started understand that, I knew that my faith would help me. That I believe before we came to earth we were all together living as a heavenly family. I believe my kids are up there now in heaven waiting to come to us as a family. Through all of our efforts this has not  happened yet, but I still believe they will come. There will be a bond between adoptive parents and child still as they are their own, not just because I will be carrying them, but because I will be raising them and loving them and teaching them as my own.
We have thought and prayed a lot on which direction will lead us to our next child and I know God know and I know that when you get that answer you run with it because it's an answer from God leading you to that child. So I can not be more thrilled and excited to learn more patience as we wait and wait and wait for that call that we are at the top of that list, ready to find a match at that clinic. At the clinic we will be doing the transfer, right now the wait time is a year to a year and a half, which should scare me, but it doesn't. Because I feel like we are being lead to this clinic for a reason that our child/children and going to be from there.
With bringing children into the world it can be from many different ways...
-Traditional adoption
-IUI
-IVF
-Donor- Egg, Sperm, Embryo
-Surrogate
-Natural
and in the end... we are all doing the same thing.. being a mom and raising out kid to  be a good kid.
So however you get your forever family, whatever the journey may take you on and through, know that it was meant for you and your family. This is your infertility journey....make the most of fighting what you want most.