When I have avoid everyone else on this earth so I could think more about how depress I was, I finally answered a father's phone call. I have it pretty good when not only have I always looked up to my dad as an amazing priesthood holder but also a church leader. He was very concern and sensitive about my FEAR of starting a long trial of starting our family. I knew and still know one day we will have children, however the Lord see's fit to bring them to us, but when I was talking to him I realized how scared I was to have to face this trial. Why did I have to feel this way? He recognized my pain, hurt and anger and knew they were real, but told me to get to studying the scriptures more to feel my Heavenly Fathers help and love.
He told me stories and made me realized although the only thing that can keep us away from our Heavenly Father is sin. and the biggest sin I was making was made known unto me, that I was letting Satan allowing me to be miserable like himself. Thats all satan wants from us, to be completely and utterly miserable like him and I was allowing myself to go through that.
I googled LDS family services and found great spiritual insight. I read through scripture and what I came across first was
DOCTRINE AND COVENANTS 101: 16
".....be still and know that I am God."
I control a lot of my everyday choices, but this is one I need to let go and remember every single morning, every single hour and someday I need to get on my knees every moment and remember "aubrey, be still.....God is in control and he knows everything"
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