It doesn't mean a thing to me anymore. I have grown up with more then what I really needed. I had a very blessed life. When I got married I had a hard adjustment to a new simpler life style. Then I realized one day, I can work for my nice things.
I don't know when this happened but it did. I realized that with wanting these things in life I would never fill that emptyness of not being pregnant or having kids to teach and raise. I write often in my written journal about how I would give it all up just to the the opportunity to have a family.( we still are in the unknown if we can or can't have our own kids). I think my life has been forever change because of this. Women that have had children don't love their children less at all then me. I just don't need anything anymore.
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Oh Aubrey I had no idea! It made me cry knowing my wonderful friend had to go through such a hard time and I wish I could make it easier. Being a mom is my number 1 wish, too so I have no idea what you have to go through. Can I at least be there for you and listen for you?
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