our next step...

I feel like all great ideas come to me after 5pm on a friday so that I have to wait and thinking about it all weekend long.
As I have felt a new path everyday since our failed IVF....
-never waiting to try to have another kid again
-adopting asap
-embryo adoption
-chinese way with herbs, acupuncture
- going into isolation and being a loner

Well, tonight my heart skipped a beat. My favorite Dr. has embryo adoption at his clinic and all I want to do is call him up and get our name on that waiting list. Hoping I can call on Monday and find out more info on this to see if this is where we are supposed to go....

On another note,
I joined a infertility group on facebook...actually my friend invited me to one, found the LDS one, and joined an embryo adoption one too. I was filling out my info and journey when seeing it all written made me realized I was hitting my head on brick wall for so long.
Grateful note: I am so grateful for the fun day I had with my daughter and all the laughter we had. I saw a picture of my husbands cousin who just announced she is pregnant on social media at 36 weeks and I said out loud, she look beautiful pregnant, because I need to only think positive things to change my thought behavior against others. I can change my unhappy, circumstances depression to serve and love others.....easier said than done, but  I will try!