Egg Retrieval Day

It's was a great morning. We got to sleep in have some pillow talk with ms brinley in our bed.

Call me crazy but I had time it all out.

It was a good morning, everything got done perfectly and I had a great time relaxing at the surgery center. 

It's hard not to have a good time when you are getting perfect pictures of your daughter back at home like this....

Here we are right before they are wheeling me in. After they gave me the good drugs to relax me and then when I went in the room they put me out before I could remember a thing.

When I woke up from recovery I remember looking at a clock. A few days earlier I remember them telling me that I would have until about noon to wake up and so I was watching the clock because I just wanted to lay there and sleep.
By the time noon came around I was fully awake and knew they would sent me on my way. We got in the car and came home. When I got home I went right back to sleep and rested the rest of the afternoon.
Earlier in the day (when I was fasting) I was dreaming about sushi, so I told Joe if I feel up to it I wanted to go out for Sushi that night.
He got Brinley in bed for me at 7pm and we were out for dinner by 7:30. I stayed out way to late, but it was worth all you can eat sushi!!!
It was a good, easy day for an egg retrieval.

IVF appointment #9

This will never end.....
Today's ultrasound was showing a lot more hope. I was so happy and chatty that I didn't want to keep track of the follicles and sizes. I did notice the 2 Huge follicle on my right side and talked to my Dr. about it later. To sum it up he told me my body is finally responding better and he doesn't care to go under to grab those 2 because he has often found huge follicles can have no egg in them, so our focus is on the other ones that are almost mature and the ones that are already.
So again...we are going on 2 weeks of follistim (IVF drugs). I have been moody, but soo soo grateful we are able to do IVF and I just hope the best for the egg retrieval later this week.

Let the waiting begin...

I've done all I can do...now I will just sit here and wait!

Well, It's always so easy to update the blog after 2 days of IUI because I personally like to come straight home from the Dr. office and lay down as much of the day as I can, relax and help the miracle of IUI take place.
We had great outcome this cycle with the medication, ultrasounds look great, and high five to the husband who did his part and it was great numbers and all. I'm very pleased with this round and I want to say this did the trick...I will say that if it didn't take this round...I don't think anything else will do it but IVF, which we are open and ready for.  We all know follicles that drop don't mean much....but I just have to say for record...we had 4 and if one of those can't make it...well I'm convince my eggs are drying up or something.

We are starting tonight with the progesterone oil shots because I prefer them over the suppositories. So I know have to wait a week for 1st blood test then a week after that a blood test for HCG. Wish us luck!

So so grateful

It's the end of a week and as I lay here in bed and scroll through all the pictures from this week my heart is ready to burst.

When I came home today I had a FedEx package waiting for me. I got everything out and took a picture to text it to the hubby. We are working so very hard to have another child and doing all we can and I am so happy I have bags of neddles and medicine to help us. I don't know when it will happen but I see this picture and feel overwhelm of gratitude for our next child. 

So instead of saying things like thirds a charm or this is our round.... Here's to everything that will help get us to our next pregnancy. Because we aren't ready to stop our family from growing.

A post without an update

I feel like my blog dropped off the face of the earth and became something I recorded down all things that have to do with trying to get pregnant. I forgot that I can feel and vent again.
Since starting up fertility treatments this time around I decided to un-follow most friends on Instagram and deactivate my facebook for the time being, and boy I'm thankful!!!! I haven't had to worry about someone talking about getting pregnant or having a baby thrown in my face everyday and it's made me a lot more happier this time around. I'm having real good conversations with people again and not worrying about trying to snap a photo of Brinley to show everyone what we are doing or brag about this or that. Lets be honest we all want our lives to look good (nothing wrong with that), but if that is effecting my emotions or makes me hate you more because of something you did that I can not...well....I want to lose Instagram and facebook and not our friendship.
I think my message is simple...live your live for you and don't try to prove anything.
and don't you worry....I plan on coming back to the fun IG and Facebook world as soon as these stubborn little follicle grow and stick and start producing a baby!!!

D-day or also know as..... IUI Round 2

IUI Day:
We woke up early to get everything we needed together, Then off to the office at 7 am to bring my husbands swimmers in. As they were washed and prepped I sat back and relaxed.
It was then my time to go in and have an ultrasound. They like to see how the follicles are growing and how close we are to ovulation time. After taking a look they asked if I had a lot of cramping last night and today? I actually was going to ask them, because I had and I was pretty sure it was due to ovulation. They confirmed that I had ovulated all 3 follicles and it was now time for the IUI. So excited that my chances upped having one more on the right side.
I went into the other room where they performed the IUI's. My wonderful high maintenance cervix came out and took the nurse and dr a little bit longer to find it. Once everything was finished I stayed there to relax. Then came home and rested on the couch the next 4 days!
Why 4 days?
That afternoon my mom ran to the grocery store and a family friend came behind her in the check out line. They started chatting and my mom knew I was open about talking about things like this especially with those that are in the same boat or have been. This family friend has gone through this 2 already and told my mom to tell me even if the Dr.'s didn't say, I should be laying down for 4 days to let the body relax and do this thing. Since her husband has gone through medical school as well I thought I might as well try everything. With my last failed iui I was a bit to confident and cocky about it all...I even went hiking the day after. I doubt I took it easy and rested up. So I'm hoping with all this good vibe we will have good results.

1st Ultrasound for this round

I went into my Dr.'s office this morning to get cleared to start another round, and by cleared I mean check out my uterus to make sure it looks pretty and I don't have any cyst growing (which is very common I've heard, but very scary).
Well, everything looks great and we decided to stay with the same routine. I go back in exactly a week to see how my follicles are growing. After the ultrasound I got my prescription and left to go get it filled.
The first time around when we got pregnant with Brinley we had no fertility insurance coverage, this time around it's awesome so I make sure that we are getting everything covered that we are suppose to. I ran into a problem picking up my clomid.....again...and had to get back on the phones with the prescription insurance company, apparently my clomid should be covered but isn't until my Dr. calls in to authorized the medication...so confusing, but sooo grateful and worth it! Now you can bet after this round of IUI's I'm going to be laying down and doing nothing as much as possible.
Thanks for the well good luck wishes!

1st failed IUI

It's hard to sit here and say what I'm feeling because I have so many different emotions.
Dreams of becoming a mom to many never seemed like it was going to be hard to get there. After struggling to become pregnant naturally I was scared but ready for modern medicine. When we got pregnant on our first treatment I was so surprise and excited, I thought we found a solution to our problem and we would go on having as many kids as we like.
Well,
Life throws us curve balls and keeps me looking for strength in my faith and beliefs.
The day is not over yet, but I've held on to my little miracle a little longer and requested for more kisses than ever. I knew she was a blessing and I could never take her for granted, but when you have a failed pregnancy you really hold on tight to the ones you have.
I want to say I knew this was coming...
but honestly it could have gone either way and I would have a list of reasons why I knew I was or was not pregnant.
I was scheduled to go into the Dr. office tomorrow for the blood work but I woke up this morning to an unpleasant surprise, my periods came.
Just so you know having a child already does not make this part any easier.
It's been a roller coaster day of emotions, but I will lay my head to sleep tonight and wake up happy and ready to start round 2 of IUI. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers that we will be able to have more kids.


9/23/11- BFP (baby girl born 6/1/12)
9/25/13- BFN (1st failed IUI)

off with clomids head!

Tonight is the last night I take my clomid and so far it hasn't been a big problem for me. I felt very bloated for a few hours last night and a bit crampy but nothing bad.  Last night I was up 3 times with Brinley and I had that thought...wow, am I ready to get up again with a newborn?

Then I thought...I don't think anyone is ready but when you see your newborns face you become more than human, you become a mom. And like most moms I know, they will do anything to not let their child feel pain when they don't need to. 

Thank You

I am very grateful for all the support I've been getting from everyone. 
Thank You

Today I was at the Dr. and I couldn't help but be a happy smiley person.
I checked in and chatted with the lady about my nail polish and was so happy and everything she helped me with I said (very enthusiastic) "Thank You"
Man, I saw a lot of old people walking around. I guess it was the middle of the day and well...someday we will all be old and broken and need more dr. help.
The best was actually getting blood work and the big black man with tattoos on his arm was chatting with a co-worker about when they are going paint balling. As I listened I giggled and got up saying "Thank You" and "see you in a few days"
I am Thankful for these people, and I'm Thankful for others helping me along our way during this time.