I feel like I am getting there...
Acceptance
not that I'm accepting that I can't or wont be pregnant.
But that I've done almost all I can right now and leaving it in the Lords hands.
As I've stated that this day came with a monthly visit.
As I sat at work just long enough to hear my happy co-work exciting to share her new baby news with each and new client of the day I tried to hold back the anger and bitterness.
I left early because I wasn't feeling well. I came home and picked up my book, "If life were easy, it wouldn't be hard" by Sheri Dew.
She talked about leaving behind your baggage. It is different then having burdens, baggage is something we take and carry ourself because we do not want to let go, ex: Worry, jealousy, guilty, unforgiving heart, anger, regret and pride are all baggage.
I'm trying to learn to give up my baggage and be HAPPY!
I can and I will go through this trial Happy. I may have sad days and I may not go to a baby shower for a long time, but I have so much more to be thankful for and need to focus on the good in my life.
The baby...the kids will happen in my life.
However we get there we will be parents, but...
ps. I whenever I see someone else pregnant I often think I hope they know how lucky their are. I would give anything to be in their shoes.
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