our journey...becoming a family

Friday, March 4, 2011

Life sucks, I mean I love living and I love my family and husband and dog but life sucks when you don't get what you want.
I'm back to the why me? What's wrong with us? Why can't we have babies??

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MY TTC Timeline

2009

Jan. 2- Married

May 8-Off BC

2010

Sep. 1- Saw OB/GYN

2011

July 20- Saw RE (Dr. Anderson)

Sept. 9 & 10-back to back 1st IUI

Sept. 23 The Call....we're expecting

2012

June 1- Baby Girl born 7lb 1oz healthy as can be

Aug. 1- TTC #2 (naturally)

2013

Sept. 11 & 12- back to back IUI with 100mg Clomid

Sept. 25- AF shows BFN (1)

Oct. 9- IUI with 100mg Clomid

Oct. 22- AF shows BFN(2)

Nov. 4 & 5- back to back IUI with 100mg Clomid

Nov.19 AF show BFN (3)

Nov. 28 & 29 back to back IUI with 125/100 Follistim

Dec. 13- blood work BFN (4)

2014

Jan. 23 & 24 back to back IUI with 150 Follistim

Feb 7- blood work BFN (5)

March 14- Laparoscopic surgery

- Found stage 2 Endometriosis and treated it all.

April- 16 &17 back to back IUI with 150 Follistim

May 1- blood work BFN (6)

Taking a month off to prep body for IVF #1

June 19- Egg Retrieval (6 eggs- 1 fertilized, didn't make it)

Failed IVF

Take a month off to prep body for IVF #2

August 17- Egg Retrieval (12 egg, 7 ICSI, 2 embryos)

Oct- can't do IVF due to Dr out of town, we decided to do an IUI this month.

Oct. 27- blood work BFN

2015- on a medical break

Dec- consultations with new RE Clinics

2016-

Feb- IVF #3 (12 Eggs retrieved, none fertilized)

June- Moved to Embryo Adoption or donation

why write a blog?

When I started to push everyone around me away because I was hurting so bad inside I had to start venting somewhere besides my husband and one faithful friend. I started this blog to just let me blow off some steam about how unfair this was. I started reading other infertility blogs and felt a bond, a sister hood. It was very helpful to see what others have gone through and made me realized I don't know how long this trial is going to last. I don't know when I'll hold my babies in my arms, and that is why I opened this up. We don't need to cry alone at night and fight our battle alone. Having this blog has helped me realized I can do so much more then complain. Although, I warn you I still have my angry days and vent, but for the most part this is a place to share infertility feelings. Please feel free to email: Aubs03@gmail.com

Infertility Acronyms

2WW 2 Week Wait

AF Aunt Flo, Period or Menstrual Cycle

BBT Basal Body Temperature

BCP Birth Control Pills

BD Baby Dance (Sex)

Beta HCG pergnancy test

BFN Big Fat Negative

B/W Blood Work

CD Cycle Day

COH Controlled Ovarian Hyperstimulation

DH Dear Husband

DPO Days Post-Ovulation

DPR Days Post-Retrieval

DPT Days Post-Transfer

ENDO Endometriosis

EPT Early Pregnancy Test

ER Egg Retrieval

FF Fertility Friend

Frostie Frozen Embryo

HPT Home Pregnancy Test

HSC Hysteroscopy

HSG Hysterosalpingogram

ICI Intra-cervical Insemination

ICSI Intra-cytoplamic Sperm Injection

IF Infertility

IUI Intra-uterine Isemination

IVF In Vitro Fertilization

LAP Laparoscopy

LMP Last Menstrual Period (start date)

LP Luteal-Phase

LSP Low Sperm Count

MAI Miscarriage after Infertility

MC,m/c Miscarriage

MENTS Subject matter may be difficult to read

OB/Gyn Obestertrician/Gynecologist

Prog. Progesterone

PAF Pregnancy After Infertility

PCO Polycistic Ovaries

PCOD Polycistic Ovarian Disease

PCOS Polycistic Ovarian Syndrome

PIO Progesterone in Oil

POAS Pee on A Stick

POF Premature Ovarian Failure

RE Reproductive Endocrinologist

RPL Recurrent Pregnancy Loss

SA Semen Analysis

SCORIF Stimulated Cycle Oocyte Retrieval

SHG Sonohysterogram

TTC Trying To Conceive